I've been pondering Paul's conversion story (Acts 9:1-6). It is the archtypical depiction of a blinding incident that converts one into a Christian, and the idea of instant conversion is repeated in contemporary "born again" language and in "come forward and be saved" alter calls. But what if it doesn't work that way for most of us?

Recently, Fr. Richard Rohr wrote that before what we call "conversion," God is out there. After, he argues, there is a new reality. God is in us and we are a part of it. He continues:

"This whole thing is what I call the mystery of participation. Paul is obsessed by the idea that we’re all already participating in something. I’m not writing the story by myself. I’m a character inside of a story that is being written in cooperation with God and the rest of humanity."

The good news about a participative theology is that, "It is not about joining a new denomination or having an ecstatic moment. After authentic conversion, you know that your life is not about you; you are about life! You’re an instance in this agony and ecstasy of God that is already happening inside you, and all you can do is say yes to it. That’s all. That’s conversion and it changes everything."

Then Rohr invokes what is known at the Francis prayer, "Make me an instrument of your peace." We become a conduit for God's peace. We do not have to do it alone.

We become participants, and because we are, a character in God's story we need to be listening for direction in how to play that part. It will take many of use multiple trials to become better participants.

That's not only okay, it's how participating with God works.

Your reactions welcome.

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